Greetings, Seekers of Information!

For some time, I have made some promises, and I am human too. Let’s get honest and personal here. My life feels like in some ways it has been turned upside down. Not at all for the worse but rather divine timing striking me with a tower moment after tower moment, bringing forth enlightenment.  I got engaged back in 2023, I thought I had found my life partner and maybe I still have, maybe love comes in many different forms and we need to embrace that. However, I am no longer committed to the past but rather to the future. Currently, I no longer wear my wedding ring, to symbolize breaking the cycles of abuse, to breaking the pattern. You see, I loved and love my partner, but I love myself more and enough to recognize when things are a pattern of hurt and suffering. Recognizing the emotional abuse and taking off the tinted glasses; realizing the co-dependent patterns that were caused in this relationship, attachment styles, communication styles, and trauma, as we both are healing from C-PTSD. It is safe to say that the pain I have been in has stemmed a lot from the lack of being able to express my emotions safely. Issues brought up would be invalidated or dismissed and I could talk a lot about everything that happened if I wanted to. The thing is, I don’t want to talk about it and I would rather talk about how some relationships are where you can grow and heal and learn lessons individually even if some aren’t being learned right away as a couple. Just don’t dismiss yourself or self-abandon like I was doing for the sake of love and continuously get hurt at the expense of trying to save someone. I lost myself trying to backtrack from the finish line to go back and drag someone who didn’t want to save himself. Not back then. However, I will say that this man is still in my life, and I recognize the growth and help he is getting now. I am proud of him in that matter, for finally waking up to his path of enlightenment. I say all this to say that your focus should be your path, not anyone else’s, that includes mine. Sometimes the path of enlightenment comes with detours and if we treat everything too seriously we stagnate ourselves. If we focus on another’s path, we confuse ourselves. And if we try to compete with others, when their focus is on competing against themselves and moving forward to become the better version of ourselves and heal. We lose ourselves in descended madness of never knowing who we are and make versions of ourselves based on the people around us. We attach ourselves to others and stake our value and worth on them. This is why it is important to love yourself enough to walk away from things that aren’t meant for you or aren’t right for you, even if it is temporary or permanent, either way. If we don’t love ourselves enough to express that the disrespect ain’t gonna fly, we teach others how to treat us. Value yourself, you’re worthy just as you are, you have intrinsic value. This intrinsic value is why I focus on helping others find their path to enlightenment. It is going to look different for you than it is for me, but I am here working on trying to make a space where people can have the tools to flourish on their path. To do so ethically, sustainably, and with fair-trade and animal rights against animal cruelty in mind. To know where things are sourced and to know that they are packaged with care and with the focus of not only your physical health, but your spiritual health, and your mental health too. 

I have a dream and big plans I am working towards, I don’t use others to get where I want to be so it is taking a long time, but I know when you build something that lasts, it is worth every second. I am working towards having a physical store here in Grants, New Mexico. I have many projects underway and with life things happening, I am not as active on the internet. I am the only one working on this dream right now, and I do not have a lot of time to be replying to others on social media. I am a creator not a consumer and I am at work 24/7, either physically, spiritually, mentally, and even emotionally. I want better for myself and as we go along you will learn where I have been and who I have grown from, my survival and self-growth are some of my most powerful accomplishments. No matter what setbacks I face, I will not give up, because this work is not for me, it is for the human race. I will have more soon, but I have also said that before, I do what the universe calls me to do and sometimes patience is very needed for the work that comes out in divine timing. 

With love and light and a little chaos,

Dei Riddle
Founder, Dei’s Emporium